Always being slapped in the face by the one i love. Hard bricks surrounding my escape, hard to leave. I love him but i hate him so. I know it does not make much sense but those are the bricks that are impossible to escape. In one hand I want to hold him while the other hand wants to kill him. It is only one way or nothing. In or Out, that is what it all comes down to. Many years of struggling and passion spent for it all to dangle on the edge? Will it jump off?
Should it turn around and pull it self up? We are talking about the relationship here. I am reprehended and treated like a dog, a bitch I must say. Feeling afraid all the time and feeling useless. this was never a part of me. I was never use to it, for it all to be so hard to leave behind. What is wrong? why do I continue to give the relationship mouth to mouth and try to keep it alive? Love.
I was the one to leave before, but it is hard for me to walk out the door this time.
Push or Pull me, please.
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